consuming the world

There are those things in life that I stress over it would seem like constantly....money, work, school, what my future looks like, etc. I put so much effort and energy into just simply thinking about those things. Why? Why do I even waste my time? Yesterday morning I discovered that I had overdrafted my bank account by about $0.60. That's all, but more than likely I will still have to pay fees. I was trying to make sure and deposit money as quick as possible so I looked in my wallet and only had $30 cash. ugh! I had to break down and ask my Dad for some money. Something I hate to do, but that's the "stage of my life I am in" as my mom told me once. I'm a poor beggar...

I've had a lot of questions lately about what I plan to do when I graduate. It hit me just the other day that I only have 1 year left of college and then I am truly in the real world. Fear seized every fiber of my being. I am ready, but I'm not. I'm brave, but I'm afraid. I look strong, but I'm weaker than I've ever been. I'm a fearful child....

I got a call yesterday morning and found out that a family friend passed away in a motorcyle accident. He's a husband and father of 4 small boys. He was young and had much life to live still. Harsh reality hit me yet again. It always seems to creep up on me like that and catch me when I'm least expecting it. I'm but a single life on this earth...

It seems that in many moments in my life I am reminded of that old hymn "Great is Thy Faithfulness". My Mom just blogged about it last week. I can't help but find comfort in those simple words:

"Great is thy faithfulness, O God my father.
There is no shadow of turning with thee.
Thou changest not, they compassions, they fail not;
As thou hast been, thou forever wilt be."

It is in these moments when I am reminded yet again of his amazing faithfulness that I realize that I am no poor beggar, nor a fearful child and to God I am not just a single life on this earth. I AM a daughter of the king, a brave follower of Christ and I am a life that is here to praise God daily and spread His glory. I no longer want to live in fear and stress and no longer want to just take up space and breathe air. I want to consume the world with the love of Christ and drench the air with his glorious wonders. No longer can I dwell on the things of this earth, because I can't help but long for the treasures of eternity.

So I will sing...Great is thy faithfulness, great is thy faithfulness, GREAT is thy faithfulness...O God my father.