consuming the world

There are those things in life that I stress over it would seem like constantly....money, work, school, what my future looks like, etc. I put so much effort and energy into just simply thinking about those things. Why? Why do I even waste my time? Yesterday morning I discovered that I had overdrafted my bank account by about $0.60. That's all, but more than likely I will still have to pay fees. I was trying to make sure and deposit money as quick as possible so I looked in my wallet and only had $30 cash. ugh! I had to break down and ask my Dad for some money. Something I hate to do, but that's the "stage of my life I am in" as my mom told me once. I'm a poor beggar...

I've had a lot of questions lately about what I plan to do when I graduate. It hit me just the other day that I only have 1 year left of college and then I am truly in the real world. Fear seized every fiber of my being. I am ready, but I'm not. I'm brave, but I'm afraid. I look strong, but I'm weaker than I've ever been. I'm a fearful child....

I got a call yesterday morning and found out that a family friend passed away in a motorcyle accident. He's a husband and father of 4 small boys. He was young and had much life to live still. Harsh reality hit me yet again. It always seems to creep up on me like that and catch me when I'm least expecting it. I'm but a single life on this earth...

It seems that in many moments in my life I am reminded of that old hymn "Great is Thy Faithfulness". My Mom just blogged about it last week. I can't help but find comfort in those simple words:

"Great is thy faithfulness, O God my father.
There is no shadow of turning with thee.
Thou changest not, they compassions, they fail not;
As thou hast been, thou forever wilt be."

It is in these moments when I am reminded yet again of his amazing faithfulness that I realize that I am no poor beggar, nor a fearful child and to God I am not just a single life on this earth. I AM a daughter of the king, a brave follower of Christ and I am a life that is here to praise God daily and spread His glory. I no longer want to live in fear and stress and no longer want to just take up space and breathe air. I want to consume the world with the love of Christ and drench the air with his glorious wonders. No longer can I dwell on the things of this earth, because I can't help but long for the treasures of eternity.

So I will sing...Great is thy faithfulness, great is thy faithfulness, GREAT is thy faithfulness...O God my father.

new realm of worship

I haven't posted in quite a while because I have been so busy recently with work. I am now working at Gateway Church in the worship department for my uncle and am really enjoying it. It's been a really different and interesting experience because I have never been involved in the worship department of any church. It opens my eyes to both the positives and negatives and thankfully there are way more positives! :)

At times I feel like an outsider looking in....not in the sense that I am not being included, but just that my talents and abilities are very different that what everyone else is gifted in, in this office. I am so use to being in college working constantly with the people in my major, so we all can relate with one another and are interested in the same things. Here I can hardly relate because usually I have no idea what they are talking about! haha!

But one of the coolest things about this job that I was just telling one of the pastors here the other day is that I feel like I am being paid to learn more about God and to grow in my spiritual life. I am learning so much about worship and how that affects and builds my relationship with God. It's just so cool and so enjoyable.

Anyways...that's all for now. Post more later!

my life at the beach

I am now living with my Aunt and Uncle because I will be working at a church this summer near their house that my Uncle also works at. I will be doing media related stuff and work for the worship team specifically. I will post more after I have started and have more to tell about that. BUT what I am writing about now is my life here in this home with my three cousins: Noah who is 4 and Grayson and Dawson who are almost 2. It's been loads of fun already! :)

There are some things that happen in my daily routine now that don't usually happen. For instance when I am getting ready in the morning I have a little helper....sometimes two! But on this particular morning I only had one:

That is Dawson and he is very fond of the hair dryer and likes to brush and blow dry his hair while I am doing mine.









Currently I am also listening to Barney going on in the other room. My day revolves around rah rah (raisin bread) in the morning, caaaahhhh (car) when we are playing and da da (anything and everything you want it to be) when we are doing just about anything else! I was working on stuff for my Etsy Shop yesterday (which you should check out at www.abeauideal.etsy.com) and I had a 4 year old helping me with everything!

Anyways....I will post more when I have more time!

family beach photo