A Sinful Heart

This isn't a post that has anything to do with the adoption, but something that burdened my heart during my quiet time yesterday evening. I was reading in Psalms 51, which is one of my favorite Psalms. I have read it many time and yet every time my eyes are opened to a knew truth. Last night as I came to verse 3 I was convicted. It says:

"For I know my transgressions, and my sin is always before me. Against you, you only, have I sinned and done what is evil in your sight, so that you are proved right when you speak and justified when you judge." Psalms 51:3-4

This burdened me because so often I am so focused on the affect that my sin has on those around me. I am so caught up on not hurting those around me or attempting to remain good in the eyes of those I wish to gain favor, that I forget that what I am really doing is sinning before my God, THE God. At the beginning of the Psalm it says that it is written by David after Nathan has approached him about his sins with Bathsheba. David realized that it was not simply against his kingdom or Uriah, Bathsheba's husband, but against God Almighty! In the end his sends this plea to God, which is one of my favorite parts of the Bible:

"Create in my a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me. Do no cast me from your presense or take your Holy Spirit from me. Restore to me the joy of your salvation and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me." Psalms 51:10-12

Oh that God would restore to me the joy of my salvation and make my spirit willing to serve him every moment.